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This world feels like a mental torture chamber very often just made to fuck with us mentally, if I was full blown schizo I would be convinced that this is all a sadistic simulation or a movie set.
I think these thoughts come to our mind because we are not part of the normie world socially and rather observers of this circus, normies really are like robots to me because they are able to partake in all this in such an automatic machine like way that I never could because I'm so disconnected from all this and socially retarded while overthinking constantly.
Without the internet and places like this I'd be convinced that this is a truman show type situation to make fun of me and sometimes im worried that I will develop psychosis at some point because of all this.
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And it's literally what capitalism is designed to do, make you feel like an animal who exists purely for utility of the manager, stripped away from the thing you wanted to do before the market decided you were going to be a wageslave or whatever you became.
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Pulling back from your ego (self) is a great thing, because it lets you gain so much more self-awareness and build your character the way you see fit. Ego death however -true ego death- is the dissolution of your prefrontal lobe until you begin drooling and need to be fed through a tube. Many things such as droogs, pain without proper respite, and porn (which is drug) all help to melt your melty brain to achieve this enlightened acidic state.
If you're questioning the nature of reality, yes everything is composed of dense imagination, which isn't "real" but is still real in the sense that imagination is in a way real (in the dimension of thought).
You may read or listen to The Astral Plane and it's Scenery for specifics, but humbly accepting you're wrong about something and have room to grow is the singular best thing you can do for intellectual growth as a person.
Kudos
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